I don't feel the above attitude is worth despising.
As for 当时我听到这个邀请之后的感觉是,一股暖流涌上心头。流亡这么多年,这么多思乡思亲的辛酸,以及自己坚守初衷的心愿,竟然被那个逼我逃亡的政府理解了。而后不断听到一些流亡者回
国的消息,前几个月还风传胡锦涛有重要讲话,说让海外流亡者回国,年纪大的要照顾,有困难的要补助。
This is normal feeling as a human being, espacially a woman. She can forsake her weak feeling and choose what is righteous. It shows what's her greatness.